Kevins Crazy World
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Your welcome Kevin. I am so happy to read your words - mainly because when I created your website - I did it to give you a form of therapy. I felt you had so much on you at such a young age and it can make a person bitter and have much anger built up inside - I did not want this to happy to you! Therefore, I felt if you could talk about it and share this with others - you would not only help yourself but help other kids your age struck with this terrible disease. I LOVE YOU ! Keep up the good work!
7/10/05
Hey Everyone! It's been a long time been a long time been a lonely lonely lonely lonely time... sorry, I've got songs on my mind 'cause I just bought a new dell digital jukebox with my hard earned MOOLAH! It only cost $238, not that bad considering that I can listen to my favorite music whenever I want. Well, a lot of stuff has happened since I last wrote. I guess I should start by answering the biggest problem in my last letter, I finally found out what was making me sick the whole time. My regular doctor now thinks that I had a cold and a stomach virus (at the same time) at one point, who knows how long ago, (probably within the 6 months that I was sick), and those 2 things combined made my body lactose intolerant. It was around this time that the stomach doctors were trying to figure out why I was sick, and their main two hypotheses were Celiac, and lactose intolerance, and they put me on the lactaid right away (even though my mom had already guessed that and started me on it about a week and a half before seeing the stomach doctor) and after about a week or so of no progress on the lactaid they had an endoscopy done. As you probably already know, the endoscopy results came back negative. This really puzzled the stomach doctors and then they told me that maybe I wasn't eating healthy enough. Around the time that I was taking the lactaid, I started taking an antibiotic for my acne because it was getting out of control again. I didn't know it at the time, but even if the lactaid had been helping me up to that point, any progress that it had made on healing my body would have been undone by the effects of the antibiotics, which is why I stayed sick for so long. When I finally went off the antibiotics (when we started to catch on that the antibiotic may be making me sick even though I was sick before even taking it) my body went back to normal in a few days. My regular doctor explained that by this time my body had probably completely healed from the cold and stomach viruses, and the lactose intolerance, so once the antibiotic was out of my system, my body could heal itself once again. I'm glad all of that is over and done with! Even though my problems seem to be back to just my vision, allergies, adhd and diabetes for the moment, my sister is still having trouble with celiac, my mom is still suffering from "Mal de Debarquement" which has been making her dizzy NONSTOP, and my dad is still suffering from knee problems. ~sigh~ We seem to just be lucky like that don't we. If anyone has any advice for me and my family it would be greatly appreciated. I am very grateful for all the love and support I have received from friends, loved ones, and even complete strangers since I started this website, and I could not have done any of it without my Aunt Linda. Linda, thank you for giving me this website. It has been hard for me to deal with all these problems in my life that normal people don't even think twice about, most hardly even know what any of these things are, but this website has enabled me to tell the world what I'm going through. I feel like this has been my opportunity to tell the world how much these diseases and sicknesses that I see everyday really suck and they need to be cured so that my family and I, not to mention everyone in the world who can be my witnesses to how much we really need this, can finally get on with our lives without having to deal with all of this crap. No one should have to deal with any of this.
On a different note, my school year is over and it is now the summer. I failed miserably to achieve the goals that I had set for myself with my grades this year and I have no one to blame but myself. Instead of getting highest honors (like my girlfriend, Joey), I only got honors instead of the high honors I was at least expecting since that is what I used to get. As Joey tells me, I should've studied, and it was stupid of me to be so arrogant to believe that I could do well without studying. I felt like I deserved the time for myself and that I shouldn't waste it studying when I could be living. I should've realized (and now I know better) that in order to actually live the life that I want when I grow up I need to study now so that I can get the career that I desire and make my wife happy. My disappointment with myself consumed my mind to the point that I was forced to make a tough decision and now there is no going back. I have come to the conclusion that I should not play varsity soccer next year because it would be way too stressful for me. Last year I missed classes and had to make up work, I had practices every day of the week when I didn't have games, and sometimes I had games on the weekends. I had barely enough time to finish my homework let alone have time for myself. If I had attempted to play it this year, not only would it have been harder to do better in school if I missed more classes, but I would also have no free time since I now have a job mowing for my grandfather. Most importantly I would have no time to see the love of my life, Joey, and that would just kill me. So by not playing soccer, hopefully I'll be able to mow, do school work, spend time with Joey, and still have some breathing room. Another benefit that I have by not playing soccer is that now I have the opportunity to explore the possibilities associated with my passion, sprinting. I think that my love for sprinting is the main reason that soccer appealed to me so much. As the years went by I started to fall behind my peers in ability but I was still able to run faster than any of them. I didn't care as much about training on my own like they did, it just didn't interest me, but I did love running really fast to get the ball away from the other team at the last second. After years of not having a track team at Covenant (my school), and now that I have given up soccer, I have found a local track organization that is open to the public, so I am going to enter the 100 meter, the 200 meter, and maybe even the 400 meter, but there is no way I'm entering the 5k!! I hate cross country, I'll stick to short distance running because I like to stick to what I'm good at.
I already mentioned that I've been really happy with Joey, because she is the best thing that has ever happened in my life. The only bad thing is that I don't get to see her as much as I would like. She just got back from 2 weeks at a camp last night and it was utter torture for me. She couldn't call me, e-mail me, only send letters and it took forever for me to get them. I missed her so much that I couldn't take it any longer and I went with her dad to see her before the 2 weeks were over. We drove 4 hours and only saw her for 5 minutes but it was worth it, just seeing that big smile on her face when she saw me, it's the best feeling in the world. Another cool thing is that my cousin Gibs here to visit from South Africa. He's not here right now though, he's coming back in 2 days but he's traveling with his family to Boston. He's my best friend and he's like a brother to me. It's a shame that I don't get to see him more than 1-2 months out of the year. I feel sorry for him because due to his dad's job, he has to move from South Africa to Senegal when he goes back to Africa. I would absolutely hate being uprooted every couple of years and leave the friends that I have grown to know and love.
In a nutshell, my life is going pretty great right now. I just finished the 2 golden sun games completely (for the first time), and when I say completely I mean getting every possible weapon, armor and any other thing that you can collect in the game. I just wish that they would make a golden sun 3. ~sigh~ I also just finished the 10th book in the Series of Unfortunate Events series last night and it was good. I really love my new digital jukebox! I can't believe that I had enough money to buy my own!! It's really cool being able to do that. It was my jukebox that helped me get through those 2 weeks without Joey, and I know that it may not seem like that big a deal or that I'm over exaggerating but trust me, I've never felt so strongly about anything in my life. There is nothing in the world more important to me than her, and I thank God every day I live for answering my prayers and sending me an angel that I can love forever. Well that seems like enough I don't wanna gross out anyone. I just like her, a lot, so TOO BAD!! I'll write back when I have more to talk about, until then, keep me in your thoughts and prayers!
~Kevin~
